“I’ve fallen out of the outrage algorithm.” I love that. Even the image of falling - it feels like the real world has been waiting to catch us all along.❤️
Thanks for the kind words! I don't struggle with feeling "enough"...I struggle with knowing what I want my future to look like. I can get another agent and I could probably write another book. But do I WANT to??? And so, I ruminate. 😁
I think the pace of the news and the alternate realities, plus the normal life stuff and the algorithm pressure--it's just too much after awhile. Embrace the quiet, friend. Your soul needs it.
Morning Shannan, Morning People of the Soup. Ive got 3 important things to say today.
1) congratulations Shannan. You did a rare and special thing with counterweights and promoting it, and the window and your kids. Nobody in this chat knows what that cost you but you, but we all know it costs. You did exceptionally and you obviously enptied yourself, and its ok to be ordinary. The tide goes in and out, you're loved for who you are and we're here for the long haul.
2) I am also here to spread the gospel of granita. Its slow, easy, hand made delicious ice dessert. So far this year we've made coffee, clementine, lemon and watermelon flavour. For lemon granita, take 6 lemons. Juice and grate the zest, add to a pan with 6 tablespoons of sugar and water. Bring to boil and simmer a while. Cool, put in a container and put in freezer. When it gets to slush consistency, attack with a fork every few hours. In 24 hours, you'll get tiny lemon ice crystals, that work with or without cream. If we're under this heat dome all summer, let's pretend we're in Sorrento, Italy.
3) We saw CMAT live this week. She is the Irish country rock and roll queen of our hearts now. Pretty sure lots of Soup people would love her too.
I’ve had a decade of change, starting with my dad’s death then barreling into caregiving for my mom, and you’ve summed up my current state in your statement: “Here in the quiet, my life is my prayer.” I don’t have words anymore because the grief is so deep and the days are a long goodbye, but I’ve realized every tiny act is prayer. Your words always comfort me, Shannan.
Thank you again, Shannan, for sharing your thoughts and your heart with us. When there is so much chaos around us, it’s so good to have the moments of peace I feel reading your words. If you decide to write another book, I will read it. I bought your other books after loving Counterweights so much, and I’m just so grateful for books and authors! I definitely needed to hear Sheryl Crow’s lyric today. Peace to you.
Sorry for the rough times you are having. I appreciate that you always manage to find positives amidst the mess. I am 68, and I remember the stage of life you are in - turning 50, the emptying nest, and looking to re-tread for the next chapter. Blessings as you explore what will come nest. I have no doubt it will be good!
It is a very quiet season for me. It's almost like the universe is making it more so every day. I've had alot of necessary endings the last couple of years. Definately a tear down but I'm eager to build up again. The silence can feel overwhelming, even when your intentionally reaching out and seeing people. Thinking of you, wishing you acclimation as I search for it myself.
My heart bleeds with yours, Shannan. 💔 This week has been Rough. I’m spending my morning mentally prepping for 3 night shifts in a row. God be with us.
Amen!! Quiet is at times hard fought, hard to find, to capture. Sometimes I crave it. The early morning before my husband and the rest of the world wakes helps me gain energy for the day. I hope your added quiet brings you clarity Shannan. I hope you find ways to connect and serve. I imagine you are still missing your kitchen coworkers very much.
Thank you for sharing your insight here. Sending you God’s peace. ❤️
Your words have become the lines I pray and shout and sigh and text to my sister this summer. Thank you for writing and sharing even when it's not clear what on earth there is to say.
“I’ve fallen out of the outrage algorithm.” I love that. Even the image of falling - it feels like the real world has been waiting to catch us all along.❤️
PS never talk yourself out of ice cream!🍦
It doesn't feel quite as sustainable as it once did. 😅
Sometimes there are no words, and even if there is no contract or agent, who you are as you are will always be enough.
PS Eat more ice cream.
Thanks for the kind words! I don't struggle with feeling "enough"...I struggle with knowing what I want my future to look like. I can get another agent and I could probably write another book. But do I WANT to??? And so, I ruminate. 😁
I had it twice in 3 days! 😂 Setting "healthy" limits feels right for me at this stage.
Thank you for grappling with all of this for us, with us.
Thanks for riding along!
I think the pace of the news and the alternate realities, plus the normal life stuff and the algorithm pressure--it's just too much after awhile. Embrace the quiet, friend. Your soul needs it.
Amen! Yes, a break has felt so wonderful, even as I grapple and even as I know it can't be forever.
Morning Shannan, Morning People of the Soup. Ive got 3 important things to say today.
1) congratulations Shannan. You did a rare and special thing with counterweights and promoting it, and the window and your kids. Nobody in this chat knows what that cost you but you, but we all know it costs. You did exceptionally and you obviously enptied yourself, and its ok to be ordinary. The tide goes in and out, you're loved for who you are and we're here for the long haul.
2) I am also here to spread the gospel of granita. Its slow, easy, hand made delicious ice dessert. So far this year we've made coffee, clementine, lemon and watermelon flavour. For lemon granita, take 6 lemons. Juice and grate the zest, add to a pan with 6 tablespoons of sugar and water. Bring to boil and simmer a while. Cool, put in a container and put in freezer. When it gets to slush consistency, attack with a fork every few hours. In 24 hours, you'll get tiny lemon ice crystals, that work with or without cream. If we're under this heat dome all summer, let's pretend we're in Sorrento, Italy.
3) We saw CMAT live this week. She is the Irish country rock and roll queen of our hearts now. Pretty sure lots of Soup people would love her too.
The gospel of the granita is the good and delicious word! I’ve never made it, but now I want to, Simon!
I’ve had a decade of change, starting with my dad’s death then barreling into caregiving for my mom, and you’ve summed up my current state in your statement: “Here in the quiet, my life is my prayer.” I don’t have words anymore because the grief is so deep and the days are a long goodbye, but I’ve realized every tiny act is prayer. Your words always comfort me, Shannan.
I'm going to need for you to never stop writing. The end.
Shalom, Soup Friends.
Resonated with this in some ways and always appreciate your deep honesty about the nature of boring, everyday life!
Thank you again, Shannan, for sharing your thoughts and your heart with us. When there is so much chaos around us, it’s so good to have the moments of peace I feel reading your words. If you decide to write another book, I will read it. I bought your other books after loving Counterweights so much, and I’m just so grateful for books and authors! I definitely needed to hear Sheryl Crow’s lyric today. Peace to you.
Sorry for the rough times you are having. I appreciate that you always manage to find positives amidst the mess. I am 68, and I remember the stage of life you are in - turning 50, the emptying nest, and looking to re-tread for the next chapter. Blessings as you explore what will come nest. I have no doubt it will be good!
It is a very quiet season for me. It's almost like the universe is making it more so every day. I've had alot of necessary endings the last couple of years. Definately a tear down but I'm eager to build up again. The silence can feel overwhelming, even when your intentionally reaching out and seeing people. Thinking of you, wishing you acclimation as I search for it myself.
In my own clarifying quiet season ❤️ Thank you for putting words to this.
My heart bleeds with yours, Shannan. 💔 This week has been Rough. I’m spending my morning mentally prepping for 3 night shifts in a row. God be with us.
Amen!! Quiet is at times hard fought, hard to find, to capture. Sometimes I crave it. The early morning before my husband and the rest of the world wakes helps me gain energy for the day. I hope your added quiet brings you clarity Shannan. I hope you find ways to connect and serve. I imagine you are still missing your kitchen coworkers very much.
Thank you for sharing your insight here. Sending you God’s peace. ❤️
Your words have become the lines I pray and shout and sigh and text to my sister this summer. Thank you for writing and sharing even when it's not clear what on earth there is to say.